Words.

You will wonder why i never appreciate when you treat me good. No,i did really appreciate but i just don't know how to express that i'm really appreciate. The way i talk might gave you wrong feeling,i apologies and please don't assume that i doesn't mean it. I'm the kind of person that i get in love and i never want to walk out although i tried. I remember someone said never ever get tired with the relationship. If you want to love please not to get tired,but i did it ;'( Because i don't want you to get tired of me,so i said back to normal. Its it hard to accept when someone just say lets stop this. Sometime all this is the process that we have to face to know did we really need each other or we suitable or not. Maybe gone through this we learnt how to appreciate,tolerate each other? I never mad at you.Erase the bad memories we still left good memories right? I cried all the time,because i really miss you. I always wondering how you doing,take care of yourself,don't smoke when you are cough.;') Get enough sleep and take care. Back to December this song really sing the word of my heart to you.

December.

The 6th post of the year,is DECEMBER. How many of you really know me well? I'm always feel sorry for my friends that i'm being so emotional. The very first reason i have emotional problem is due to my family. I'm cool and talkative person,every one have their own characteristic. It is weird cool and talkative mix up but is possible i'm being talkative when i face to my friends. But the way i talk were very cool and i might also hurt people direct and indirectly and sorry i'm a straight forward person. I always thought i'm changing the way i talk but i realize since i lose you,that i'm still same. Why i'm being emotional? Because i have no one to love,my man gave all my love to my sister. You will never know the feeling how my family neglected me. At home i just shut my mouth and facing computer,everyday and is been years. I always run out from my house,that why i'm always hanging around outside alone. You never know i just be happy as i can in the college,once the class is end i plug in my earphone and back to my own world. Sometime i just cant use they way you want to talk to you,because i'm a person like that. When i'm tryin to be nice,please don't let me disappointed. Don't tell me an emotional person don't deserve to love and to be love. Why i always say that i'm sensitive in relationship,no matter friendship or others? Because i gain no love from my parents,i feel love from my friends. Thats why i put all effort on relationship and friendship and expect others to do the same thing for me. Please know why before you judge me. ;')

The 5th post in 2012 !

Time by time is already November,gonna say goodbye very soon to 2012.
What i have did in 2012? Been to college,meeting new friend and someone?
Life are simply simple,you never knew what gonna happen until it happen.
Well,now its already second semester in the college and my mind was fucked.
Dad has open a noodles stall somewhere near salak south garden which is near by my house.
Fortunately,after years i met someone that mean to me again?
This time might wont do the wrong decision and make myself regret again.
Thanks for being patient to me,sorry for let ya waiting <3 p="p">

Seriously i hate virgo's personality. Just to crab!
Why am i still struggling,the feeling is there just don't have the guts.
No one perfect you know,but you are expecting him to be perfect.
Thats just unfair because you are not perfect.

Everyone have their demand on the guy that they want,but when the right person is there you might forgot what demand you had already set earlier.

July?

It is July! Cant believe I'm already in college for 2month, a load of tutorial and my assignment haven't done and the submission date is due on next week! I just cant accept a month later I'm gonna sit for final exam, the problem is can i sit for final? I'm freaking sad that i fail my coursework :(( I tried hard!I tried my best to catch up, but my retarded mind cant event work D: Is really unfair,people used 2 year to learn their addmath and i use 2 month?;/ That's fine.. Sometime i recall back what somebody said that I'm friendless. I think so?I'm really friendless... Even though I'm sad i feel like talk to somebody and i afraid that i annoyed them;// I hope something impossible become possible. I always believe in faith and miracle happen. I'm the person who hate waiting but I'm always waiting, I don't understand. I really miss you ;'(

Tuesday of May

Ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww,is Tuesday :O Tuesday is the busiest day ever,gotta stay back until 7pm++ ;( Yesterday i really proud of myself,i sleep during BM class.-,- During basic algebra for the quiz time i slept for 45min++ I'm sure i'm gonna fail this subject end of the year ;(( Just cant pay hundred percent attention on my studies, what should i do?:( try to not stressing myself.

One month passed

Another month passed,meant i'm already one month in college. Is really tiring,just a month i already anti my course mate. I don't want this happened,but he forced me,don't feel like talking about it.;/ Well,so far NO good for me. Basic mathematics and algebra is getting harder,until i cant stand it anymore. I feel very tired and no one could helped me out;( I really hope somebody could teach me,but i feel is to troublesome to ask people spend time on me. I can't stand with me stupidness:( Never try to get close with me .

BACK TO BLOGGING IN 2012;))

Is been year i lost this bloggie's password and also email./.\ Tried to find it many time and its doesn't worked,so i stoped blogging T__T I really miss this blog so much,don't you think this blog feel so warm?:D Well,now is 2012!! And my college life already started for 3weeks?;D College life is really tiring,a lot of tutorial question and needa wake up early for class,go home late ;( Now i miss high school life,why do i always complain this and that during high school life?@@ How good if found back my email and my password earlier,then i can wreak over here ;O Blog is the best place to wreak,complain and everything,and no one know ;D p/s: I know somebody is stalking,while you reading please don't giggle in front of the pc;D IM SUPER DUMPER HYPER HAPPY BACK TO BLOGGING;D